Dec 11 2010
Dear all mighty companions,
I was out shoveling snow from my drive way this morning, and it was so beautiful with all this white gleaming snow. I love it. This afternoon I was at a church concert called “Elvis in the Church”. It was great!
Since I came home from Mallorca, I have more at peace in my mind. And my joy level has risen several notches. I am so grateful for David’s talk about prayer, that we had in one afternoon. Now when something troublesome comes in my way, I often laugh and thank The Holy Spirit for giving me an opportunity to remove another block. That has been so helpful !!! Thank you.
Another thing that has been helpful has been the reminder that everything is past past past, and that the only free will I have is in my reactions of what is happening. It takes away the struggle. It has been such a relief to think about it this way.
But the last couple of days I experience doubt and confusion. It is difficult for me to put these confused thoughts down in words (and especially in english), but I will try, since I would like to get some help from you on this topic. How can something both be past and happen in that same moment based on my reactions to a situation?
For example: if something “bad” “happens to me” and I react so strongly, that I shoot/hit the person that “caused” this reaction. Or something “nice” “happens to me” and I react in a way that I kiss/hug this person? Both situations were just an emotional reaction that took form as a shooting or hugging.
If everything is is past, how can I be the one who creates incidents according to my feelings/reactions? And if I could have avoided this incident by choosing another reaction, then how could it already had happened in the past? So are my reactions also predetermined? I am confused.
I loved being with you all in Mallorca. I miss the no private thoughts and no people-pleasing together with you. And I look forward to see you again next year on Tenerife, or Andalusia, or Mallorca, or…
Lots and lots of love,
Dear Netti and everybody.
Only loving thoughts are true. Only! All other thoughts are ego thoughts and not true. I try to remember and my beloved KJ helps me a lot to remember the Truth. Other thoughts are not good or bad, just not true.
Hypothetical intelligent questions are egos try to figure out something to prove God and love is not real. Do not listen!
Lots of love,
Like Målfrid is saying, only loving thoughts are true and what seems to happen in the “same moment based on my reactions to a situation” is actually still the past, it is not the true Present Moment or the Holy Instant. It is a reaction to something caused by a belief in the mind, a belief other than “only truth is true and nothing else is true”. Projections come from beliefs and projection makes perception, and this is what we are healing through the forgiveness of reactions and emotions and projections..
“If everything is past, how can I be the one who creates incidents according to my feelings/reactions?” That’s why the dream is used as a metaphor, you only believe it is “you.” It is actually not understandable to the ego.
“if I could have avoided this incident by choosing another reaction, then how could it already had happened in the past? So are my reactions also predetermined? I am confused.” Everything in form is basically of the past, and David use to talk about the “future-past” and the “past-past”, both are the past because they seem to play out in form. The future-past just seems as if it has still not happened in your life in the world, but it all played out in the unholy instant, the instant of the tiny mad idea that the course is talking about. The instant when the mind thought it could create unlike God and hid in guilt and fear because it thought it actually did it. That’s why you don’t need to be concerned with what you seem(ed) to choose in form, only with the forgiveness of the beliefs. The Holy Spirit is there to guide and lead you through all the beliefs and show you which way to go while still believing in the dream of the world.
Rather than thinking “The script is written” means that everything is predetermined it helps to think that everything of form is past (written is in past tense). Then you only need be concerned with your state of mind, choosing your right mind in any situation and moment.
I hope that clarifies it!